SZA Writes an Emotional Thank You Letter After Receiving Five Grammy Nominations
SZA is grateful
On Tuesday morning, the 2018 Grammy nominations were announced. One of the big winners was TDE star SZA, who is up for five Grammys, including Best New Artist, Best Urban Contemporary Album, and Best R&B Performance.
A day after the announcement was made, SZA went to her Instagram and wrote a passionate statement describing how she got to this point.
In the statement, SZA describes the insecurities around the making of her landmark album, CTRL. At one point she said she was crying on the phone with TDE CEO Punch, begging him to not put out the album.
Here is a piece of what she wrote:
“I remember feeling like damn, maybe I suck. Maybe I should try something else? Maybe I’m just wasting space. Life’s weird…I didn’t have any friends growing up. Never gave my parents an opportunity to say, ‘Wow my kids killing it.’ Didn’t graduate or do any fly shit before my Nana died. Been fired from every job I ever had.”
This is an interesting letter to read when you consider all the delays CTRL went through.
Read it below.
I remember pretending to be vegan cause that’s all I could afford lol (chips avocado n salad mix ) I remember sleeping on everyone’s couch cause I missed the train AGAIN (thank yall for having me lol ) . Sold my beloved 500$ grillz for 50 bucks at the gold shop for train fair( I was SICK 😩 lol ). I BEGGED Punch for writers on this project cus I thought no one would ever like me the way I was . He said “U don’t need em”. I remember crying cus I didn’t have any hits or a quantifiable “sound”.. I remember feeling like damn maybe I suck . maybe I should try something else ? Maybe I’m jus wasting space ..Life’s weird . I Didn’t have any friends growing up. never gave my parents an opportunity to say “wow my kids killing it” didn’t graduate or do any fly shit before my nana died . been fired from every job I ever had ..I remember sobbing on the phone w punch pleading for the album not to come out cause I couldn’t take the embarrassment . Just wanted another week . Another day ?..he ignored me n said I’d be fine…This entire thing puts my wildest dreams to shame. I dunno what to say cause I dunno how to accept its even happening to me lol ? I’ve never won anything in my life until this week even (THANK YOU SOULTRAIN AWARDS!!) it all just feels strange somehow BUT IM SO OVERWHELMINGLY GRATEFUL FOR THIS STRANGENESS!! . I’m so in awe of Gods plan.. I just wanna live up to it. Thank you for listening to me.. thank you for understanding me.. thank u for bonding w my thoughts just the way they were. INFINITE GRATITUDE to the Recording Academy for this INCREDIBLE honor. I can’t even believe I’ve been considered. God bless every person who worked on this album or gave it an ear (specially the producers of the century @somethingnebula @iam_c_lang @thankgod4cody 💜) . Thank you Top and Punch for believing in me no matter what (even when I’m on your LAST nerves😊) . Thank u RCA for giving me new wings🙏🏾 THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS LIFE I DONT UNDERSTAND . #Ctrl.. a concept . #mygrannynominatedfor5grammys #TDE